Scars and Dreams

Trip time!

Mon, 02 Jun 2008 17:21:51 GMT

So… yet again a long time between posts.

There has been a lot happening in that time span so I’m just going to post about the Now.

McKenzie and I are heading to Canada tomorrow. We’ll be there 3 days and see Evil Dead the Musical (we're in the splatter zone!) and (the reason for the trip) Leonard Cohen!! I cannot believe I’m really going to be seeing him. O_o It’s NUTS!

Got lots to do before we leave, as early as possible on Tuesday, but regardless I’m going to a movie with Michele tonight.

It’s good to keep busy and get out of the house.

And I might be dating again. lol We’ll see how that goes.

a New Year, a new LJ post

Mon, 14 Jan 2008 18:27:17 GMT

I’m done dating for now. I just started dating, and I’m done with it! lol

*sigh*

I was enjoying my time with Rob. We had 5 fun dates and I kissed him after a wonderful trip to Troy. I had hoped to spend new years with him but he was going to Long Island to visit his family. And then Thursday 3rd of January I give him a call, in hopes of setting up a date for Friday where he could come over and we’d watch Office Space and cuddle.
And BAM, he gives me the “lets just be friends” thing. O_O
Didn’t see that coming...

So I’ve been a bit miserable the last week. That combined with the Winter Blues has me not in great spirits. But with the great weather last week I spent time getting sun on my skin and in my eyes like mom said. I’m also taking Vitamin D to help me. And I had a great evening on Friday with Michele, McKenzie, James and Jeremy where we got something to eat and went bowling. It was a good time and then I just lazed around Saturday playing videogames and cuddling with piggies. So the weekend was unproductive but relaxing.

Well I guess I’m just putting dating on hold for now. With the grandparents finally coming and the beginning of a new year, I just feel overwhelmed already and don’t want to deal with other emotional and relationship stuff.
The dynamic of our household is going to be changing; I don’t need to toss in meeting a new guy to the mix.

Upcoming weekend

Tue, 11 Dec 2007 17:36:27 GMT

My Horoscope for December 11, 2007
Jupiter, planet of benevolence, gets together with Pluto, planet of transformation. This is a once in twelve-year chance to move forward. Do not get back with an ex, find someone new and look to the future with confidence. Do you want happiness?

Well... this horoscope is surprising and reassuring.
I'm going to be meeting a guy for coffee on Saturday. And although he might not be exactly who I thought I'd be interested in, it's a step forward. It'll help me move on.

And Friday I'll finally be meeting James who I have been talking to for alittle more than 2 months now. He's joining McKenzie and I for the Mendelssohn concert at the Egg.

So I'm real nervous and real excited.
And I knew it would be hard, it's like my heart aches that I'm taking these steps away from Tom... But he doesn't want me, doesn't want my love and sees no future with me.
I've always felt forms of emptiness in my life but Tom created a new kind of emptiness, which is actually both good and bad...
I have to let go and meet someone new; who may eventually feel like home to me like Tom once did.

so this is long overdue

Mon, 29 Oct 2007 19:17:03 GMT

So much has happened in the last couple months... and in May I totally planned on writing in my LJ more often but that seems to have completely not worked. O_o
That always happened when I wanted to keep a diary too so it's nothing new.

And everytime I was going to update, there was so much swirling around in my head that I didn't know where to start, so I just did nothing. Kept it swirling in head obviously but *sigh* that doesn't do me much good. :-/

I had a great evening with Laurie (Tom's mom) yesterday. Kenzie made a yummy dinner for us and we watched the movie Peaceful Warrior, which was powerful and moving, as expected and moreso actually. So I didn't get a chance to talk to her much about Tom and I breaking up and why etc etc but now she knows more than she did before since he practically told her nothing. *rollseyes*

Anyway, it is what it is. I didn't talk to her as soon as I wanted, but I got to talk to her. I really missed her and I feel that we'll get more chances to talk since she wants to get together again as well. Have lunch with Kenzie and I or something.

My headache kept me awake again last night so this day has been mostly a daze... But I'm still managing to get work done, slowly, and with periods of time with my head on the desk. lol It's Monday.

I'm going to the cadaver lab at SUNY Albany with Kenzie tomorrow. I'm equal parts interested and freaked out that I'm going. *_*

And GWAR is this week! I am totally planning on not holding back at this concert, I might regret it after but Pssha It'll be worth it. :D Although I am wearing earplugs, I don't want that ringing muffledness like last time. No fun. Pain I can deal with, knees giving out I'm used to, but the ear ringing is annoying and disconcerting!

So yeah for an update! Now back to work. This was a change of pace from head on desk time. ^_^

May - Quick post during lunch

Fri, 25 May 2007 16:33:33 GMT

So I can't say I'm doing very well...
It's been a very difficult month with finally letting Munchkin go... With Ozgard getting sick and passing away... With friends at work needing surgery...

But I am now a college graduate. The ceremonies were long but an experience I'm very happy I went through and will always remember. The Honors Awards Ceremony was fun. But for the actual graduation dad and Tom couldn't find me in the crowd of 1,800+ students (largest ever for HVCC) and so they missed me walking across stage (plus my name was called incorrectly), luckily mother taped it at home. Apparently I had a doppelganger about 4 rows behind me, so they thought she was me. lol Although she didn't have a lovely corsage like I did. It was all sparkly and even the HVCC President commented on it when we shook hands on stage. ^_^

This last Wednesday was my 2 year Anniversary with DEC. And I was out in the field in Saratoga monitoring traps and I got a tick!! *shudders* All my years of running around in forests for fun and I go out for work and get a tick for the first time. Ugh, it was gross but mom helped me and so far so good. We don't believe it was in for very long. I'm going to be obsessively careful from now on.
I also plan on identifying the tick, we saved it in some alcohol. *g*

yikes

Fri, 27 Apr 2007 19:30:42 GMT

Huh... maybe I am a bit obsessed with MySpace... it's been 10 weeks since I last updated this here LJ. O_o

But I've also been busy with work. The chaos is starting up once again. And just yesterday there was a bit of a stressful situation. I guess I'm lucky, I've been with DEC for almost 2 years now and haven't really had any problem I couldn't solve. That's why I was so incredibly pissed when I couldn't figure out where the hell some equipment was. Parts are still missing and I can't for the life of me understand what happened. I'll probably be getting a migraine from this stress and frustration. :(

But then maybe not cause Tom helped alot. Before the stressful afternoon I had a nice lunch with him cause he had the day off. And later he picked me up so we could hang out for awhile. Ate peanut butter gelato, watched Zathura and just relaxed. His brother came home early which sucked, I wish I had some time for just the 2 of us without being interrupted or thinking about when someone is gonna be home. Grrr

Anyway, the rain is bringing out the flowers and last night Tom and I saw a froggie by the house. So that means I better get my butt in gear and clean up the ponds. lol I feel bad when we can't save the eggs cause they're stuck on leaves. And I'm sure the koi are ready to be back out in the big swimming hole. :)

Tom is coming to my graduation. I wish you could be there Eden. But it's a long drive just to see me walk in a cap and gown with a bunch of other people. And you don't like being in the car. So you'll be missed, but maybe you'll be there whenever I graduate with an actual degree that will do something for me. ^_~ I really should look in to colleges with entomology courses... but procrastination is my annoying buddy. hehe

I bought some mead! hehehe it's soo yummy. I have it chilling at home for tonight, I'm going to tempt Tom with it since I usually go over to his house. That and I want him to watch Titus. *Grin*

Gotta finish up some stuff and maybe I'll call mom to pick me up early. It's Friday after all. ^_^

Penguin Superbowl Sunday Fun ^_^

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 02:06:44 GMT

I can't seem to actually post the slide shows here on LJ... So here are the links. :)

http://s56.photobucket.com/albums/g178/BlueFern/Penguin/?action=view¤t=1171328921.pbw

http://s56.photobucket.com/albums/g178/BlueFern/Penguin/?action=view¤t=1171329616.pbw

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POM to End Deadly Animal Tests!

Fri, 26 Jan 2007 18:16:22 GMT

PETA Victory

Excellent news! I am so very happy to have gotten an email from PETA with good news!

I had joined the campaign by writing a letter stating that I had stopped buying all POM products (and I bought them often...) and I would not buy them again until they stopped funding/conducting the useless horrible animal experiments.

I feel really good now. I felt horrible when I first read about POM... because it meant I had also helped fund animal cruelity since I bought their products over other brands. Made me sick.

Catz

Sun, 14 Jan 2007 01:17:53 GMT

I wanted to share with you Eden. ^_^

The parents

The little ones

Getting older and starting to walk around and play.

Taken from Fi :) hehe

Mon, 08 Jan 2007 22:52:48 GMT

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Year 2006

Sun, 31 Dec 2006 19:18:10 GMT

So this is probably silly and/or stupid… but I thought I’d sit down and write out the major events, thoughts and changes that happened to me in 2006. It’s been quite the year.

First thought I have is I made it through another year. There were some strong suicide thoughts but not as strong as in the past. And I really kept the self-harm to a minimum; I only have two new scars.

The grandparents have not moved to NY yet… The second floor is all ready for them and every holiday that passed I wished they were here to celebrate with us. *sigh* I feel like by the time they get here, Kenzie will have moved out and I’ll be thinking of it myself or maybe even gone to a college away from home. They have already missed so much of my life… And it feels more and more like only one of them will be coming out here and I hate that.

I’m still working for the state and I still love it. My bosses are great and I’m going to try for a permanent position. Maggie left for a better job and it hurt so much… but I do still get to see her once and awhile. I’m getting much more confident in my abilities especially with the continued support from Jerry and Jason. And with HVCC pretty much done I need to make some decisions. Insurance and such… stuff I’ve put off for too long.

I met Tom at HVCC early in 2006. He’s definitely made quite the impact on my life. I never thought that I’d fall in love and get my heart broken. People say it happens when you aren’t looking for it. And I sure wasn’t looking. Lol But I’ve learned a lot about myself that I never thought I’d learn. A few things such as I love kissing (something I believed would be icky), I really enjoy waking up next to someone, and the main thing, that I can be myself with someone without fear.
It’s been an awakening experience. Being comfortable with Tom has allowed me to be more comfortable with other people and myself. I’m letting people at work see more of my goofy fun side and I’m finding that I can have conversations without such anxious feelings.
Although he was never my boyfriend and most of it was confusing, it’s been a wonderful experience. And I’m so very happy he’s still my friend, since most of my friends leave me behind. You’re supposed to get your heart broken so you can grow from it. I feel like I have. And now I’m looking for a potential boyfriend. I still feel silly but I’ve joined online dating sites and I have some friends who are looking to set me up with guys. Hehe But I’m not looking too hard… I’d just like to actually date since I’ve never done that. ^_^ Unfortunately I seem to mainly get interest from 30-40 year olds! LOL And the guys I like are spread across the country! *pout*

Tom was there for me when grandpa died. And he was there when I lost Loki… both were incredibly hard. Some people might find it strange that I would equate the death of my grandfather to the death of my guinea pig… but I held Loki as he died… I raised Loki… I loved Loki… I hardly knew my grandfather… and many memories are full of fear because he wasn’t the kindest of men. And I’ve always been able to connect with animals more than humans. *shrug*

Munchkin is still with us. She’s gotten frailer and meows louder but she’s our silly beautiful kitty. This Christmas will probably be her last though… and there’s no explaining how that makes me feel. She’s been with me my entire life! She’s like a sister… and I dread the day she won’t be here. So she’s spoiled and loved bunches everyday. :)

I’ve been dealing with a flareup for about 3 months now. I haven’t had one for over 3 years and I’m pissed that I let myself stress to the point of this! So now I need to get it under control cause I really don’t want to deal with doctors.

I’ve started smoking cigars. I’d say I have one a week. I used to only have one a year. O_o

McKenzie is no longer with Chris. That was unexpected and painful. But I feel it is going to be a wonderful thing for Kenz. More doors are open to her now. And she’s out of an abusive relationship with an unstable asshole. He is such a child too, we had his things to pick up and he dropped his friend Matt off to get them, then drove away! LOL What a coward. What the hell did he think I would do? Matt is so much more a man than Chris will ever be. I’m glad I got to at least say goodbye to Matt… he was a good friend and I’ll miss him. It’s been a challenge for the whole family I think because, of the three of us, none has had to breakup with a boyfriend and deal with the aftermath.

2006 was the last year of me working as Barn Supervisor at the Fair. I’m done! No more. 8 years is enough of that shit. It’s going to be weird buying a ticket to the Fair next year though. I’ll probably only go when Hair of the Dog is playing. Should be fun to be at the fair for entertainment purposes…

I turned 23 on the 23rd. That only happens once. *grin*

I got a new furry friend. Her name is Flute and she’s the most adorable little hamster. Every week she gets a bit bigger, I feed my little friends well. ^_^

My DVD and CD collections have increased to the point that I have no more room and need to figure out where to put them all!

A heron ate half of my pond fishies… It got my 2 goldfish that were over 13 years old! All the koi were safe and the next day moved inside. To say I was pissed would be an understatement.

Dad had back surgery. And his recovery has been incredible. We keep hearing how unusual it is that he’s gotten healed and active so soon. I think it’s cause mom and I kept him from doing stupid things like carrying heavy stuff or doing too much work outside. ;)

I saw many great concerts in 2006. Blue October, GWAR and Blue Man Group being the best ones. I also saw Nickelback with Lindy but I liked Three Days Grace and Hoobastank more. I also got to see Korn, DirEnGrey, FlyLeaf among others at SPAC which was memorable.

Still no nose ring or tattoos… but both have a pretty good chance of happening in 2007. ^_^

Sisters and I got the parents new furniture. It looks great in the living room and that 35+ year old couch is gone. And we got a loveseat that matches the new couch which is cool cause we’ve never had a loveseat before. To top it off the parents got a new tv from us as well.
I guess those new things finally encouraged mom and dad into looking into another vehicle. And now we have a new car! Mom and I have been driving by it for months and now it’s ours. Heehee It’s pretty blue too! I’ll get to be on time to work in 2007!! Yippie!

Why now?

Sat, 25 Nov 2006 18:49:53 GMT

Tom has been a part of my life for more than 8 months now. And the parents haven't said or done anything. Let me do whatever I wanted.
Didn't care that I stayed at his house until 2AM numerous times... Didn't care when he slept over in my bed without their knowledge (noticed his jeep in the morning of course)... Didn't mind that I went to Pennsylvania with him for the weekend (I'd only known him like 2 months or something)... Have seen me crying about him and let me deal how I chose... Never said anything about our tickling and "fighting" that has been part of our weird interactions...

I know mom made some comments, concerned that I was spending too much time with him sometimes. But dad? Nada.
Until last night. Why the hell does he choose now to say something?

We're friends. I'm ok with it. Or at least I thought I was... It's been tough to say the least.
Dad doesn't like that Tom kicks me. Something Tom has always done...
I thought it was in fun. A form of affection. But talking to the parents... I think I let him kick me because I miss his touch, and letting him kick me is something. :/ They say it shows that he has no respect for me. ~_~

So I'm a bit sad and confused and pissed... I cried again last night and I wasn't going to cry about him anymore. *sigh*

And shit. I just said yes to go bowling with him! I have no restraint. I love the time I'm with him... He's a great friend... and I don't have many of those. (something else I've come to truly realize instead of living in denial) But I can't seem to say no to him. Oi.

sheesh

Mon, 20 Nov 2006 20:55:06 GMT

Yeah... so its' been awhile since I've updated my lj...

Alot has been going on... but I seem to have nothing to write out. :/

I'm real tired today. Not been sleeping well. Bad aggrivating dreams and staying up too late couple days last week are not helping.

Mainly I've been feeling scared. It's been a long time since I've had a flare up... How did I forget the pain? ~_~ I stressed about stupid things that turned out to be pointless or not even happen. And classes haven't been going well, which is mostly my fault because I procrastinate.

This morning I talked to my boss Jerry and he asked about school. I told him it was alot this semester, more than usual. And his response was "It doesn't make you bleed." To try and help me put it in perspective... but I almost started to cry... because unfortunately for me that isn't true... At least at the present time. :(

So yeah... I'm happy about Thanksgiving... because it's my favorite holiday but sad that not more family will be here. I really hoped Grandma and Grandpa would be here for this one. *sigh*

I'm going to finish up some work and the mom is picking me up. Once home, I'll be doing more work. Those are for a grade though. hehe o_o

Honey Hand Dream

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 06:01:59 GMT

The last couple nights have been kinda rough. Full moon this week. Been having strange dreams, stranger than usual anyway. Most of the time I have forgotten most of a dream by the middle of the day… But one part of a dream has stuck with for 2 days now. I can’t remember all of it except the image of my hand. And I’m concentrating on applying honey to my whole hand. There are two people looking on and making comments but nothing I can remember specifically.

So I thought, since I can't sleep once again, I'd look up some meanings.

~Hand
To dream of your hands, represents your relationship to those around you and how you connect with the world. Hands serve as a form of communication.

~Honey
Most ancient as well as modern sources agree that this is an unusually favorable dream predicting domestic, social and temporal sweetness, which is as lucky as anyone can get.
Honey represents sweetness and feelings that bring you happiness such as love, peace and joy. It is the spirit or life force that sustains us. In the Far East, lies are sometimes called ‘poisoned honey’.

There was lots of similar things on other websites. Kinda interesting considering what's going on in my head concerning Tom... I think maybe I need to talk to him.

I had a fantastic time with him on Friday night. We went to the Blue Man Group concert at the Pepsi. It was really amazing. There was so many really cool and funny moments that I don't want to start typing them out, maybe later, when it's not 2 in the morning lol O_o

Tis the first of October! Bye bye September

Sun, 01 Oct 2006 20:51:22 GMT

Who needs Rum & Coke when you've got Rum & Squirt? *grin* And rum gummy buggies, really soaked rum buggies. lol

Decided drinking and cleaning would be more productive than trying to study. So far so good. My room looks much better and I'm throwing away things that I don't need anymore. And packing away things that'll remind me of Tom. I've moved Fezzik the beaver off my bed so I stop cuddling him in my sleep and I've removed the dried rose petals by my computer. I don't want to put away my hemp necklace though... maybe I'll just wear it sparingly. *shrug*

Also found some hidden gifts for sisters birthdays that I was looking for. Hehe I knew I had them stashed somewhere...

If it wasn't raining I would have gone outside andd studied. ;-) But this is more fun in the long run and probably more emotionally healthy, despite the alcohol. ^_^

Tom withdrawal

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 03:55:07 GMT

Yeah... so it was me this time that stopped. We're going to try to just be friends again. No more cuddling or kissing even...

I've made it more than a week since I told him... and I've seen him twice since my fumbling confusing confession about needing to stop. I didn't know it was going to hurt so... ~_~

I can't sleep and pathetically have been getting "breakup" and "letting go" and "moving on" songs. *sigh* It's not like we were offically anything...

I didn't know I wanted more, until I knew he didn't and couldn't. :(

I think it fucking sucks that I had to stop being close to him so I didn't fall in love.

I miss him.

Cold Night of Music

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 19:15:11 GMT

My throat hurts a bit from screaming last night. Went to the Family Values Tour aka Big Day Out with Kenz and Tom. Of all the weird things, Tom's brother and some of their friends were in the line next to us going in and Tom recognized the back of his head. LOL So had alittle group to stand with. Rained but not all the time, had lawn tickets this time.
I got to see Dir En Grey! We got there just in time. :D They were awesome. Later I bought shirts for both Kenz and I, I'm wearing it right now.. real comfy. ^_^ Though Kenz says it's "scary" lol.
I was going to get a FlyLeaf shirt, cause they were pretty, but the band weren't anything special live... I do like their album though. *shrug*
Korn was lots of fun to watch perform. The other bands were kinda Blah/Boring/Snore... So Korn and Dir En Grey were worth it. (I wanted to see Deadsy but they performed before we got there *pout*)
We got a great spot although standing on cement for hours means I'm going to hurt for more than a week...
Overall not a great night but I did have fun. Including everyone wearing the green pimp hat I got. hehe

sigh

Thu, 31 Aug 2006 15:06:18 GMT

Today is Maggie's last day... I got her a going away gift last night. Shopping with Kenzie was nice, although tiring...

It's not going to be right here at the office without Maggie. :(

I don't know what else to say... I'm trying to mostly feel happy for her but it's difficult. And it's been so hard not being able to help her this week. She's stressed and unhappy and I couldn't do anything to help. ~_~
That's what I do... help Maggie, make her happy, make things less stressful... but I've been useless to her and it hurts.

Coping with change is not something I do easily...

this sucks. :(

I keep reminding myself, she's not leaving the country. *lopsided smile* That's something...

It's Sunday

Sun, 20 Aug 2006 18:22:32 GMT

It's been 2 weeks since Loki passed away... I miss him.

~

Today is the last day of the Fair. And the tomorrow will be my last day as the Barn Supervisor. I'm sticking to it this time, we've already been telling exhibitors that we're done. It's a thankless exhausting job and 8 years is enough.

~

My last hermit crab, Jack, died this week... little guy just got new sand and everything and he goes and dies on me! :(

~

Maggie will be leaving DEC for a permanent job. I'm trying to not get depressed over this... but she's the one who hired me, showed me around, and is a good friend... I know this is really great for her but there's also the fact that she doesn't want to leave either... So I'm both sad and happy for her.
At least she's not leaving the country... That's usually what happens to my good friends. ~_^

~

On a lighter note, a married friend, Donna, at work is teaching me to flirt. LOL She pointed out a cute guy was giving me "the eye" and I didn't notice. *is an airhead* So we'll be going back to see the guy again and see if I can smarten up and flirt back. I did notice him... but uh... I'm shy and silly and didn't think it was anything. I told Donna next time to elbow me when a guy is flirting, not tell me about it once we've walked away. *giggles*

~

The lightning storm kept me up last night. I've been so tired this week... I knew working both full time and the Fair would be crazy. I would love a small vacation to relax and get ready for my next semester which starts the end of this month... but I don't want to miss Maggie's last days. :/

Taking a break from data entry

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 17:38:41 GMT

Allergies are kicking my ass this week... I'd take a benadryl but I don't think my bosses would appreciate me sleeping on my keyboard. lol

The pile of data sheets is almost gone! I can't freaking believe it! I hope I get them all entered today... that would be soooo amazingly wonderful. Of course, next week a new pile will begin but the backlog will be gone! O_O

So that being said, this small break should be over. *sigh*

Short update

Fri, 21 Jul 2006 18:23:09 GMT

Bored here at work. Can't access stupid database to update trap records. >_> Leaves me with very little to do if I can't use ISIS. Stupid evil program. I hurried through all my other work this morning so I could spend the afternoon working on ISIS. Not too smart. lol
I still haven't quite caught the state worker mentality I guess. ^_~

I be going to see Blue October this evening!! WHOOT! *does a little jig in her chair since all her bosses are in a meeting* hehe
I got the tickets yesterday, I ordered them early last month. *rollseyes* Was supposed to get them at least a week before the date of the event so was just a tad nervous.
There's also a band called People in Planes, that I spend some time on their website this week and I'm excited about seeing them too. I'm pretty positive I'll buy one of their albums. :)

Loki was real sick yesterday. I didn't think he'd be with me past the morning. So I didn't come to work yesterday and spent almost the entire day with Loki. He ate some lettece and a yogurt drop when I ate lunch and then he slowly started to improve. I'm so very happy that he's still with me... He had a bit of his attitude back this morning too. ^_^ Much better than comatose-like piggie.

Well, I guess I can pin and identify some insects while I wait for 4o'clock to come. :D

Rock & Roll

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 17:04:11 GMT

I went to a concert with Lindy last night. I was at work when she asked me at about 10AM if I wanted to go with her.
Surprisingly I woke up today and my hearing was back to normal... I thought I'd be asking my boss Jerry to speak up (he's usually quite loud anyway) lol

The opening act was Hinder who I didn't know anything about but they have songs playing on the radio. I just never knew what band they were since the radio dj's suck. :-P Not bad although the lead singer kept having to hike up his pants. :) Rocker butt crack not what I was looking for. hehe

Then Three Days Grace performed. They were fantastic and Lindy has always wanted to see them live.

Hoobastank was next. And I loved every minute of them on stage. Shirtless hot lead singers are my favorite. *grin* They are wonderful and I really need to get their new CD... Still surprised the radio stations play the song "Inside of You." O_o

Finally Nickelback. It started with an explosion and loud heartbeat sounds then another explosion. There was lots of pyro and fireworks effects during their performance. :D Rock singers certainly say fuck alot. lol And give the crowd the finger...

The mass of people standing by the stage were lame. They hardly jumped and very rarely put up their lighters. Only when a band asked for them to get wild, did they get wild... for a short time. Blah, lame Albany. People in the seats danced more.

I had great fun screaming and dancing and shouting and singing along. Especially doing all that with Lindy made it all the better. ^_^

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 02:27:04 GMT

Well the breeze blew my papers all over my room... O_o I needed to go through them anyway. hehe

I thought the picture of the grey tree frog I took last week would be good for an icon. He was so cute! With little yellow patches on his legs and I took a short video too. I should figure out how to post it...

It's been nice to be on my computer again. I don't feel as stressed and scared as I did when I got home. I don't believe I'm dealing as well with the stress as I first thought... :-/

Woot!

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 00:12:13 GMT

I got my internet on my little computer Darien working! Woot!

I've got over 500 emails lol I'm sure a good 450 are spam. This should be fun. *rollseyes*
But at least there's a wonderful breeze coming in my window. ^_^

Hmmm... I need another lj icon for Summer. Guess I'll be searching pictures after I delete spam. hehe

Fri, 23 Jun 2006 17:28:21 GMT

Reaching a new level of stress... but am actually dealing. I held back the tears this morning lol

Although co-workers don't know how to deal with me like this. They haven't seen me overwhelmed and crazy. O_o So that is bringing some amusement to me today. hehe

I'm been speaking with some actual authority during all this madness... so that's interesting. And learning lots as always.

Finally met dad's boss yesterday. And am now working in 3 different offices, just depends on the day. LOL

The big office move around will be next Tuesday so been boxing up stuff and listening to others do the same. Next week is going to be chaos me thinks. O_O